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supertightsA history:
Consequences:
I know depression is often suffered alone and my real life depression, work related stress, and online personal failures, didn't impact on your life other than you didn't get a comment to your story in the timely manner you wanted, you special little snowflake.
Yeah, I should have replied to you on the day it was revealed, and lied and said your story was awesome. Maybe then you would've been happy and not bitter and resentful.
The harsher truth:
The story was not what I asked for, there were canon mix-ups, spelling mistakes, and gramatical errors aplenty. If it was beta read, then I'm shocked.
I wish I had never commented, apologised, left a kudo, or hoped you might understand my reasons for not replying immediately.
When people say optional in their Dear Writer letters, what they're really saying is: "I hope you step up to the challenge I have presented and write me an opus, because a Katy Perry song ain't gonna cut it this time."
One last comment on an unrelated note:
We've all become big fat snobs about fanfiction gift exchanges and I'm not even joking when I say that. You have to have made your name with a back catalogue of well received stories in popular fandoms, bookmarks, kudos numbering in the hundreds, comments to infinity, and an entourage of squeeing readers, to get a free pass these days. And by free pass, I mean spoon. And to quote The Matrix, "There is no spoon."
NOTE: Comments to this entry are disabled for a reason, I don't want some self-appointed fanfic justice defender coming by and stinking up my LJ.
- Accidentally join and fail to delete my application to gift exchange during a time of stress and depression.
- Attempt to write story and fail.
- Attempt to write another story and fail again.
- Default at great personal cost to my emotional state.
- Don't feel worthy of receiving a gift story because I failed and defaulted so kudo gift story even though I'm not in the right headspace to reply or even read it.
Consequences:
- Several months later, read a public post outing me as a shitty recipient and why my request sucked in an unrelated gift exchange, classy move, writer!
- Feel awesome. Not really--
- Return of intense feelings of depression and failure.
- Go to story, read it, hate it, but write a heartfelt apology and an explanation of why the reply is late coming, and hope for forgiveness and kindness, and maybe lie about how good the story was, because apparently that's a thing people do these days to avoid hurting a writer's feelings.
- To late to delete sign up to unrelated gift exchange, write four request fills to make up for inadequecies of previous gift exchange life
- Return to find my apology comment is deleted without reply. Fine. Don't deserve a reply obviously. Or forgiveness. Or kindness. I get it, I'm a lousy human being. But I'm not alone in that either.
I know depression is often suffered alone and my real life depression, work related stress, and online personal failures, didn't impact on your life other than you didn't get a comment to your story in the timely manner you wanted, you special little snowflake.
Yeah, I should have replied to you on the day it was revealed, and lied and said your story was awesome. Maybe then you would've been happy and not bitter and resentful.
The harsher truth:
The story was not what I asked for, there were canon mix-ups, spelling mistakes, and gramatical errors aplenty. If it was beta read, then I'm shocked.
I wish I had never commented, apologised, left a kudo, or hoped you might understand my reasons for not replying immediately.
When people say optional in their Dear Writer letters, what they're really saying is: "I hope you step up to the challenge I have presented and write me an opus, because a Katy Perry song ain't gonna cut it this time."
One last comment on an unrelated note:
We've all become big fat snobs about fanfiction gift exchanges and I'm not even joking when I say that. You have to have made your name with a back catalogue of well received stories in popular fandoms, bookmarks, kudos numbering in the hundreds, comments to infinity, and an entourage of squeeing readers, to get a free pass these days. And by free pass, I mean spoon. And to quote The Matrix, "There is no spoon."
NOTE: Comments to this entry are disabled for a reason, I don't want some self-appointed fanfic justice defender coming by and stinking up my LJ.
