Sitting up writing Voltron fanfic instead of Camp NaNo-ing

Feeling really lonely tonight for some weird reason. Not sure why. My birthday is approaching and that's usually a trigger for a kind of seasonal depression where I cast a judging eye back over my life and find a lot that's not good but so is anyone talking to me about having children and guess what my mother wanted to talk about yesterday before I went to work. Yeah, I might be a bundle of anxiety.