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2020-12-31 10:10 pm
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The lacklustre blogger formerly known as candyflosskillr

This journal is for friends only.

Seriously, I am grumpy and old and have only a couple of fucks left to give so I'm saving them.
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2017-08-11 11:17 pm

I think I'll delete that Voltron story

I seem to delete more stories than post lately. 
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2017-08-10 09:38 pm

I'm lonely as fuck

I just realised. 
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2017-07-01 10:59 pm
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Sitting up writing Voltron fanfic instead of Camp NaNo-ing

Feeling really lonely tonight for some weird reason. Not sure why. My birthday is approaching and that's usually a trigger for a kind of seasonal depression where I cast a judging eye back over my life and find a lot that's not good but so is anyone talking to me about having children and guess what my mother wanted to talk about yesterday before I went to work. Yeah, I might be a bundle of anxiety.
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2017-06-05 01:24 pm

F you TMS

 Someone cut my jaw out and stamp on it please!
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2017-06-03 08:50 am

Sitting here waiting for Jukebox to open

I'm so excited to read everyone's stories! 
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2017-04-25 10:20 am

Today's mission

Fix-it fic for GotG vol. 2 for my sister. We went last night to the advance screening; not cool movie people, comforting my little sister who is crying her heart out is not cool. I paid for her to see a fun movie not whatever that was.
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2017-04-23 10:54 am

Damn

Had a lot of stuff happening in RL and missed the window for BTF. Bummer.
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2017-04-22 01:53 pm

I've been taking a few days on the NW TV show rollercoaster of feels

Just to think about things, how do I really feel about it. Conflicted. More importantly, irritated as hell. When it was announced, I was so surprised by a supposedly unpopular team being given a show. Don't argue, they are extremely unpopular with the Marvel elite and often end up as literal canon fodder for anguished heroes to cry over. So why a show? Because Squirrel Girl couldn't stand on her own. I was against it on principle because since the third series (which is no coincidence) they have been square-pegging other characters into the team. Just look at Avengers: The Initiative where they added flipping Ultragirl and Slapstick into the team. Yuck.

Also, I called it on Debrii being gay. Oh yeah, in that story about Speedball post Dark Reign which was apparently super OOC for everyone, where she arrived with her French girlfriend. Psychic skills ftw. Story in my fic graveyard now.

Back on topic, so then they announce which characters will actually be in the show. Mr Immortal? WTFingF?! Everyone else if fine but how disappointing that they teased Justice before, then dropped him like a lead balloon. Why?
  • mutant
  • Jewish
  • child abuse survivor
  • killer
  • telekinetic
Mutant is a bad word in Marvel owned Movie-verse so let's not go there. I wouldn't have assumed that Vance being Jewish was reason to drop him, the show will not coincide with the Secret Empire dogs breakfast so it's not that. The show is a comedy and there is nothing funny about being abused or killing your abuser. I added one more. He's a telekinetic and they've added Debrii to the ranks so it's possible they just don't want two telekinetics on the team. Reading through the synopsis and character profiles, it appears that they have taken aspects of Vance's personality and added them to Robbie. Hmmm. *frowny face* The one that surprised me is Night Thrasher. Are his parents alive? Where is the dramatic tension and 90% of the canon background for the team's creation if his parents are still alive?

I am still thinking about this stuff. It will be pretty cool to see Speedball in living colour but it won't be the same without Marvel Boy, Nova, Firestar, Namorita, etc. I love Microbe being back through, gosh I was sad when he was killed in the event that shall not be named.

I may bring this unholy mess of a show back up again sometime. Sorry.
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2017-04-15 07:11 pm
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So it was possibly a bad idea to try and do so many things in April

 Um, I don't think it's completely insurmountable:
  1. Camp NaNoWriMo - editing this time around
  2. Jukebox - Some ideas percolating
  3. BTFChallenge - I have a fandom *crickets*
  4. Unspecified three sentence prompts. 

Oops.

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2017-04-08 12:45 pm

Dear DJ

You have been directed here from LJ because of their recent stupidities. Sorry about the redirect.

Dear DJ

Oh how I love you for writing me a story, not in a stalker-love kind of way, but a very thankful, gosh you're a kind soul kind of way so may you have a lovely Jukebox experience. I do have a few DNW's (and every time I look at someone's letter I think, "Oh no, do I have to add that as well?") mine are below. I have made a few suggestions for each prompt but they are exactly that, just suggestions. It's your story.

I like: 
  • Complex many-faceted characters from all walks of life
  • Characters that have human frailties and are flawed even if they also have strength and power
  • Fairy tales rewritten in ways that reinvigorate and give new twists that make them contemporary
  • I am a sucker for superhero or super villain origin stories
  • Fantasy where characters are challenged mentally, physically, and emotionally
  • Science fiction that is heavy on science
  • Strong world building
  • Urban fantasy (minus the romance)
  • Also a sucker for happy endings, fluff, crack, plottiness, hurt/comfort, kindness, height difference, love, tenderness, friendship, families being families, curtain fic, heroism, magic, fix-it fics, holiday fics, rule 63, touch, intimacy, mentors being awesome, women being awesome, secret identity failures, aaaaaand did I mention happy endings.
Totes happy to receive fic with these:
  • Offensive language
  • Gen, het, slash, or femslash - it's your choice.
Specifically do not want please:
  • Explicit sexual content of any kind
  • Gratuitous violence (excludes fantasy violence or comedic violence)
  • Sexual violence, dub-con, non-con, abuse, incest, underage, pregnancy
  • Self harm and suicide
  • Angst or depression (it's just too hard for me to read stories about depression as a sufferer)
  • Animal abuse or pet death
  • Character death
  • I'm sorry if it feels restrictive but I have reasons.

Requests (in no particular order):

Team - Lorde (Song) | Fanfic | YouTube | Lyrics

Call all the ladies out, They're in their finery
A hundred jewels on throats, A hundred jewels between teeth
Now bring my boys in, Their skin in craters like the moon
The moon we love like a brother, while he glows through the room


I can think of a lot of possibilities with this story: superheroes or villains, a masquerade ball of aliens, fantasy, sci-fi, urban fantasy, fairytale. The choice is yours and if you want to go somewhere else with it, please do. 


Glory and Gore - Lorde (Song) | Fanfic | YouTube | Lyrics

Delicate in every way but one (the swordplay)
God knows we like archaic kinds of fun (the old way)
Chance is the only game I play with, baby
We let our battles choose us


This feels like a song about fighting and drinking, drinking and fighting, more fighting, and then having fun afterwards. It could be the story of an epic bar brawl in a fantasy pub that spills out into a city, a cosplay battle between enraged fandoms at a 'con, a D&D type situation that takes on horrible reality, a book club getting out of hand, the possibilities are endless. I don't think I would like a straight up gladiator type story please.


What it feels like for a girl - Madonna (Music Video) | Fanfic | YouTube | Lyrics

This video speaks for itself, write whatever it inspires you to write. I love the attitude in it, the elderly woman has just as much grit as the main character.


Run Boy run - Woodkid (Music Video) | Fanfic | YouTube | Lyrics

This video is full of such cool imagery, black and white in the style of an old monster film, it appears dream-like, running and falling and running again with friends and foes (although you never see them). What is the boy running from or to though?

 
Well, that was a marathon I hear you say. It was, I agree, but thank you for persevering. :)
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2016-10-07 08:17 pm

Dear Yuletide Writer 2016

Dear Yuletide Writer

Sorry sorry sorry, I wasn't expecting the matching to go quite so quickly so I'm running to finish this in between other commitments this week. I'm sorry it's taken this long to gather my thoughts.

Thank you for choosing to write in one of my requested fandoms, you are generous beyond words!

Immediate disclaimer: If you want to write a seasonal-xmas-hannukah-yule-insertchosenfestiveoccasionhere story, feel free. If you don't want to do it, feel free not to - I guarantee I won't mind either way.


MY REQUESTS 2016:

New Warriors: Vance Astrovik

This is my rare Marvel fandom request so I'll burble most about this one. Vance Astrovik is a mutant in the Marvel Universe and is aligned with the New Warriors. I assume if you signed up for New Warriors you are at least passingly familar with him but if you need more info, then wikipedia is a good starting point though it doesn9;t cover the last series of New Warriors. Marvel Wiki and Comic Vine have information as well in varying degrees of usefulness. Despite my utter dislike for the forum, New Warriors dot com has a good overview for the comic book life of Vance Astrovik. Somewhere on tumblr there is a New Warriors masterpost which is very good.

Specifically I really like the way that Vance has been characterised by Chris Yost in volume five of New Warriors, smart, empathic, optismistic, powerful, and kind. He wants the team back together, he's been convinced it's a good thing, now he just needs to show them all that it's a good idea. His showdown with Iron Man and Captain America was so in tune with his personal philosophies and I loved how the series ended on that upbeat note about expanding the team. I also have a fondness for Vance as Marvel Boy from the volume one stories by Fabian Nicieza, he was so earnest and eager to be a hero, sometimes it went well, other times, not so much, but he never lost his optimism.

Anything that fits into those volumes would be amazing. I'm not so keen on the OOC storylines from Avengers Academy and Avengers the Initiative so if you can pretend they didn't exist I'd be in your debt. If you want to bring in other New Warriors characters, I have no problem with that but if you could keep Vance front and centre of the story please.


The Martian (2015): Mark Watney (The Martian 2015), Chris Beck (The Martian 2015)

Well where do you even start with The Martian. The film is just amazing with great character moments and long loving looks at the landscape. I've read a list of the extended Blu-ray deleted/extended scenes and wow, yes please. I think people being really competent and good to each other is so pleasant so mabye just Beck being a good doctor and Mark being an irrascible but also vulnerable at times patient on the journey home and anything around that. I imagine that when the stress of being marooned is lifted, the weight of what happened will hit Mark and maybe Beck can be a doctor of the soul after all.

I don't ship the two characters particularly because I kind of loved the adorkable-ness of Beck with Johanssen but if you want to explore something then sure, this is also about you being a happy writer. :)


Firestarter - Stephen King: Charlie McGee (Firestarter - Stephen King)

When I saw Firestarter come up I was intrigued by what could be written, in fact I barely remember the book so I won't hold you to any details whatsoever. Maybe you want a write a fix-it fic where Charlie's Dad lives, or maybe her Mom, or both, a family of powers on the run? What would it be like for her if she and her Dad never went to the cabin at all and were still running from The Shop even years later? Could she control the fire? Would she want to? What if she got married and had children, would they inherit anything from her? Or flip it and she's a villain/a Shop girl until she finds out her Dad never died and The Shop lied to her about so many things for so long - what would she do then? Your ideas or mine, go with what you feel like writing.


Crossfire (Music Video)

Inverted tropes? Oh my, yes please! Distressed Dude and Action Girl! Ninjas! Distressed Dude being rescued again and again by Action Girl from those pesky ninjas! That smile he gives her when she arrives and finishes kicking ninja butt each time, he's so glad to see her and she kind of looks at him like she doesn't get him at all. Maybe I'm wrong, but it almost feels like everything takes place all in one night too like it's a long series of kidnappings and rescues. It doesn't have to be romantic if gen is what you feel, I'm very happy to read gen. Write what you will, I adore this video, you can't go wrong here.


We Are All Completely Fine - Daryl Gregory: Harrison Harrison (We Are All Completely Fine - Daryl Gregory


I requested Harrison Harrison alone because I liked the way he interacted with each of the other characters in the book and I'd be happy with anything from a solo adventure story to a ensemble piece, whatever feels right to you. I felt he and Barbara had shared history with the Scrimshander that went largely unexplored within the context of the group, and he and Stan were kindred spirits in the lost-a-limb to monsters stakes as well. I felt he was so jaded but the group got him genuinely interested in life again. There's no fic at all about this novella so anything that adds to the canon is very exciting.


GENERAL STUFF ABOUT ME AS A READER:

I like:
Happy endings, fluff, crack (where indicated), plottiness, hurt/comfort, kindness, height difference, love, tenderness, friendship, families being families, domestic fic, heroism, magic, fix-it fics, holiday fics, rule 63 (where indicated), touch, intimacy, the mundane, mentors being awesome, secret identity failures, happy endings.

I really absolutely totally do not like:
Explicit sex, bdsm (particularly dominance), realistic or graphicly described violence, any combination of those (I won't make a list of kinks I don't like, just think as vanilla as possible please), fetishism, rape, non-con or dub-con, underage, physical or mental or sexual abuse and anything that comes under those banners, self-harm, good going evil, dark themes, dark fic, a huge multitude of AUs, angst or depressive stories of any kind, character death, animal abuse and/or pet death.

Doesn't worry me in the slightest:
Offensive language doesn't bother me. Slash or yaoi is all good and fine (where indicated).

If you want clarification on any part of this or have questions, please don't hesitate to get a mod to ask me on your behalf. I can't figure out this anonymous commenting because it's late and I'm super tired and formatting is defeating me as well. I'm very happy to answer any and all questions you have. I don't want this experience to feel stressful because you were unsure about something that I could answer really quickly.


Thank you for chosing to write in one of my requested fandoms. :)
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2016-05-28 11:23 am

Ugh stupid cat

So I've torn my calf muscle when the cat tangled with my legs. She's fine. I'm a mess, so much pain from my leg and the crutches and the headache I've nursed since it happened. Thanks universe, I wasn't in enough pain and suffering from enough anxiety. Thumbs up for the additional crap I now have to deal with at home and work.
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2016-05-21 10:49 am
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Luxury thoughts

Health problems once more rear their ugly heads. This time I need to have an MRI, I don't suffer claustrophobia so I'm lucky with that, but what bugs me is that this stupid guy in a queue behind me yesterday wouldn't stop coughing and sneezing in my hair. I'm going to have to go hard core on Fisherman's Friend to stop any cold taking hold until after the MRI because I can't be sneezing and coughing in it, they'll probably defer it until I'm not prone to sudden movements.

The luxury of guilt when you've been talking salt with a friend about someone who is a pain in the ass. I'm too old to be doing that but I am so PMS it's not even a joke so yes, my ability to shrug it off slipped and salt occured. Now I feel a weight of guilt.

Having my Aunt stay has been amazing but I am so behind with where I need to be with my Jukebox story. I need to get on that, I cannot default under any circumstances short of catastrophic.

I am so tired.
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2016-05-14 07:15 pm
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Destination Crazytown

I am signing up for two Marvel Bangs, one for fiction, one for art. Oh lordie! Once Jukebox is done, I feel I need to stretch myself a little bit more before NaNo this year.

So I know I can do 10,000 words, last year I did 50,000. I also know I can do some form of art project worthy, I've done that before too.

This can happen, I can make it happen. I just need to control my anxiety and not get stressed.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
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2016-05-11 07:59 pm
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Ow and wow

So clearly I shouldn't be permitted to assemble things like shelves because I not only nailed my little finger with a mallet (fuck ow is more accurate) and I think the skin burst a bit but I have fucked my right elbow with all the hammering.

It doesn't appear to affect my typing so Jukebox contines.

The wow part comes from finding a bag of old clothes in the garage that I had thought lost forever. My old Image comics shirts (excuse my embarrassment for a second): Spartan, Wetworks, Dane, Shaman, Gen13 in pristine-ish condition. I am so happy.
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2016-04-24 01:14 pm

Dang I need to get stuck into my Jukebox story

I'm all juiced from reading excellent short stories and I need to capitalise on it. I have ideas, they need to be mapped out a bit but I think they'll be awesome! Keep telling yourself that girl.

I received a link to Felicia Day’s Advice for Creative People Who Suffer from Anxiety and Depression via Camp NaNoWriMo in my inbox this morning. I really must read her book.

Tomorrow is ANZAC Day, I shall attempt to make ANZAC biscuits. Photos may follow if I am successful.
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2016-04-09 11:54 am
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Lalalalaaaaa

So wow, I love my Jukebox assignment, so inspiring and the requestor's letter is super cool and full of great ideas.

Maybe I'll be able to do some treats too.
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2016-04-07 07:58 pm

Thoughts on Jukebox as an observer slash participant

So I firmly believe that having your Dear DJ letter up before sign-ups close is a good thing. Some folk might be on the cusp of offering something and if your letter turns out to be full of interesting/non-terrifying requests, it might well nudge them over the edge into offering one of them.

On the flip side of that, by my calculations, I matched on six out of seven requests and five out of six offers. TERRIFYING!! Several of those were for art (EVEN MORE TERRIFYING!!)

I have no idea what I'll receive in my inbox because of this.
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2016-04-05 07:28 pm
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One challenge down

Original writing this year seems to be the way of it. I've finished one and I'm waiting on Jukebox to close so I can receive my assignment.